I Miss My iPhone.

I have commitment issues.  I have always been like this…Even as a kid.  I always wanted something new and exciting.  Something different.  I always wanted a new backpack or pens, or notebooks, or shampoo.  I just liked trying new things…(Except food.) And clearly that hasn’t changed.

I recently broke up with my iPhone for a Samsung Galaxy.  I heard REALLY good things about it.  And it’s okay, but I REALLY miss my iPhone.  I gave it to hubby and he CRACKED the screen!!!  *rolls eyes* I mean, SERIOUSLY!?! (It was an old iPhone 4 and it still works, so I shouldn’t be that upset.)

So, now I’m saving for another iPhone.  *sigh* I’m cheap so I won’t be getting an iPhone 6 anytime soon ha! Part of it too is that we FaceTime with hubby’s dad and step-mom so it’s been harder to do that … Trying to find time in everyone’s schedules when hubby is home so we can use his phone.

I know … Totally first world problems.  I’m pathetic.  I admit that I am greatly addicted to my phone.  I try REALLY hard to not be.

And everyone that I’ve said this to, that I miss my iPhone, says, “Oh really?!  I LOVE my Samsung!”  Isn’t it funny … It’s like Dutch Bros. vs. Starbucks.  You either love one or the other!  Haha.  (Wait, do you know what Dutch Bros. is?! I am totally Team Dutch Bros. on that one by the way!)

What I’ve Been Up to Lately!

I’m really awful at coming up with blog post titles.  Sheesh.

Anyway, here’s what I’ve been obsessed with lately.

YouTube makeup vloggers and tutorials.  I’ve calmed down a bit on the obsessive watching, but for a while I was like binge watching.  Don’t judge.  I’ve learned a lot about makeup.  I didn’t know much … Was probably doing my makeup all wrong.  But now hopefully I can change that.  Some of these ladies though … they have quite the collection!  I doubt I’ll be THAT obsessed but maybe I won’t look totally clueless when I try to pick out makeup. My three faves so far are – Young Wild and Polished, KathleenLights,  and Jaclyn Hill.

(There are flies ALL over my office right now.  So GROSS!  Kids play outside and leave the back door open and this is what happens!)

This also got me thinking about creating my own YouTube channel.  Wouldn’t it be fun to talk about makeup, clothes, jewelry, or whatever I’m passionate about that moment?! But I feel like I would have nothing to say or nothing informative to share.  Hmmmm.  But it still has me thinking .. Maybe I can come up with something fun.  I can barely write a blog (and I mostly consider this a personal blog for my friends and family who aren’t close by and or on Facebook.) so how I’ll pull off a YouTube channel … Who knows. :)

Working out. I tried a bunch of classes at the gym.  Kickboxing, boot camp, spinning (indoor cycling, whatever it’s called), yoga, and more recently tabata and tabata spin!  It’s my new fave.

Tabata is like high intensity interval training.  You go as fast and hard as you can for like 20 or 30 seconds and then rest for 10.  You go in 2 minute intervals. It’s intense!  But you can easily modify it to fit your comfort level. Then we do tabata cycle which is fun.  I almost threw up in one class but I think it was mostly in my head.  :)

The only downfall is tabata spin is at 5:30 AM.  But it really gets you going for the day!  Then I’m doing weight lifting two days a week and I wrap up the week with yoga.  Right now I’m working out 6 days a week but yoga has been really nice to stretch out my muscles and relax after a long week!  Sunday is my day off.

Crocheting. Every winter I get into a crochet kick….And here I am again.  I really want to make a couple BIG scarves and hats and head wraps.  I always start them but I’m not the best crocheter and I either mess up and have to start over or I just don’t finish.  In the back of my mind I know my mother-in-law is an awesome crocheter so part of me just wants to ask her to do it if I find the pattern and buy the yarn.  I mean she can crochet FAST and REALLY WELL!  I want her to start an etsy shop!

So I guess that’s it … I lead a boring life!  I feel like lately my life is school, my kids, and working out.  Life could be worse.  :)  Oh I will leave you with this one pic of my daughter.  It’s her preschool picture! It came out REALLY well.  She did three poses and they all were cute but I decided to just get this one and her class picture.  Can’t believe this sweet girl will be 5 soon!

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Recent Obsession

About 6 months ago I started going to the gym.  Five days a week.  And I’ve been able to keep it up minus a few weeks here and there – like when I started school and over the summer when I didn’t have the kids for a few weeks because they were with their grandparents in Indiana.  I started to get burned out right before I started school. And used school as an excuse to not go.

So, this last week I finally MADE myself go.  I hate coming up with routines on my own, I hate figuring out how to use the machines, I just feel totally lost, and quite frankly I can’t afford a personal trainer.  (My husband has lost 55+ pounds so he clearly knows what to do, but I hated what he made me do and I wasn’t seeing any difference on the scale…) So, I decided to try some new classes!

I have always wanted to try spinning (or cycling) classes.  But they’re a little intimating.  One of my friends LOVES going so I asked her for some advice and she helped put me at ease.  I decided to try the 30 minute “express” class.

First of all, my booty hurt way more then my legs did! HA!  That seat is UNCOMFORTABLE.  I burned almost 200 calories and went like 5 miles so that was great in 30 minutes!  I definitely felt a burn!  I’m trying to work myself up to the 55 minute class.  But I’m totally hooked!  Love it!  It’s challenging and I can go at my own pace.

Tomorrow I’m going to try Cardio kickboxing I think.  I know I need to do something with all the Halloween candy that will tempt me! :-)  I’ll be sure to post pictures of the kids.  I couldn’t find the right size costume (that wasn’t $40) for any of things I thought Noah would want to be. So, we settled on a ninja.  The adorable Asian toddler on the packaging may have greatly influenced my decision.

Zoe is going to be Queen Elsa from Frozen…Because there won’t be enough of them!

indexI’m really hoping that next year I can convince her to be something that’s not a princess.  She asked to be Cinderella again this year.  Her grandparents gave her a Minnie Mouse costume that was cute too.  I’m trying to embrace her love of princesses … But I’m just NOT a fan.  I’d even take Doc McStuffins at this point.

Wait, how did I get on the topic of Halloween?  Oh and no, I’m not dressing up.  I’m such a Halloween Scrooge.  I wasn’t allowed to celebrate Halloween growing up so I guess that’s why I don’t get that into it.  But it’s fun to see what everyone else does!

Christmas however … That is MY holiday!  (Totally cliche right?)

 

art school … who knew!

I can honestly say, 10 years ago I would have never believed you if you had told me I would be attending art school.  I am NOT known for my artistic abilities.  And that probably won’t change!  BUT, I am REALLY enjoying art school.  My major is fashion marketing and this is only my first quarter, but I’m in love.  This is my passion .. this is my “thing” and I always let my fears hold me back from pursing this.

Now, that’s not to say there haven’t been struggles in my first week and a half.  I can’t tell you how many times I have said (or thought), “What have I gotten myself into? Maybe I should quit.” You should also know, I don’t handle change gracefully and I’m a perfectionist, so if I don’t get it perfect right off the bat, I want to quit.  It’s really stupid, I know, but it’s how I am and I’ve been like that for as long as I can remember.

For my first quarter I’m taking 3 classes.  Fundamentals of design (which is a core class no matter what your major), art history (which is very time consuming for me, but I have already learned SO much!), and costume history.  Art history and costume history are only 5.5 weeks long, so I will start costume history when I’m finished with art history.

I didn’t get much of a high school education because of the ridiculous school my parents sent me to and I especially did not get any art education.  I’m not sure why I didn’t just explore or learn about these things on my own … But regardless, I am really discovering things now and I love it!  My 4 year old loves art too .. More then I ever did at her age!  She loves to create and sometimes I think she could do my homework better then I can!

Alright, well that sums things up for now.  I’ve got an essay, two projects, reading, and a trip to the store waiting for me!

Season of Life

Wow.  So many things have happened over the last week.  So many feelings and emotions.  And I have to remember to keep them in check.

I call it a “God thing” when certain events happen all in a row and God reveals Himself to me at the end.  Like, things come full circle.  Maybe if you’re a Christian you know what I mean.  And this last week, God was there every step of the way.

I was in such a poor mood.  Frustrated, annoyed, depressed, angry, stressed, more annoyed.  Each day I woke up I told myself I’d make it a good day and then one little thing would just set me off and I’d sabotage the rest of my day.

My husband and I weren’t (well, we AREN’T) seeing eye to eye on certain situations.  I want to do one thing, he wants to do another.  And I was having a hard time with that.  I was putting all my hopes and dreams and goals on this ONE step.  And when he was shutting the door on me, I just said, “To heck with it all then!  I’m not gonna try at anything!  What’s the point!”  And I started to feel the urge to hide again.  To shut myself out from the world (like I had done before) and just stay in bed.

I got on the phone (after crying almost the whole day) with a dear sweet friend who gave me a lot of things to think about.  One was that while yes, this one door seemed to be closed, it wasn’t the end of my WHOLE dream.  It just meant I needed to take a different path.  I can’t give up on my WHOLE dream over one bump.  (Which you’d think I’d realize that by now, but like I said, I let my emotions get the best of me!)

So each day I was feeling a certain way, I’d open my devotional and find a story, prayer, and Bible verse to walk hand in hand with what I was going through.

For instance, one day I was feeling like my life would never change.  That my life would always consist of diapers, sippy cups, laundry, cleaning, dishes, tantrums, and fighting.  And my devotional was about feeling stuck in a situation.  About how all that God ever wants from me is to want Him. Love him. Acknowledge Him.  The prayer was asking Him to help me see my situation with clear perspective. I also realized that this is just a season.  This isn’t how it’s going to be forever.  My circumstances might not change today or tomorrow, but my outlook can.  I can keep moving forward.  Keep putting one foot in front of the other to work towards my goals and my dreams.

Then there’s the whole self-confidence/self-esteem issue I have from time to time. Feeling like I can’t do certain things well or that I’m not doing certain things correctly or friends with certain people, because there’s something fundamentally wrong with me.  I’ve always felt like an outsider.  I think even in my own family.  I never felt like I fit in.  I was always different with a different life then anyone else.  Different ideas.  Different points of view.  I just always tried to shut off those differences to blend in more.

And so God came at me with TWO things.  One, don’t put the whole of your identity into the smallness of a situation.  Because again, this situation isn’t going to be forever.  It can’t define ME.  The scripture was Colossians 2:9-10 (NASB).  “In Him all the fullness of Deity dwells in bodily form, and in Him you have been made complete, and He is the head over all rule and authority.” I just want to emphasize – IN HIM, I HAVE BEEN MADE COMPLETE.

The second thing was listening to a sermon yesterday (from my phone! I love technology!) and the Pastor said “The more we know God, the more we’ll become ourselves.  We’ll be the people He created us to be.” The more I know Him, the more I read His LIVING word, the more I’ll become ME.  The more I’ll be the person He CREATED me to be.  Which goes back to Him completing me.

I always had a problem with people saying “She completes me.” or “He completes me.” when they talk about a significant other.  I just truly don’t believe any human can fulfill us like that.  It’s not a reasonable thing.  It doesn’t make sense to me.

I feel like I was all over the place today … I hope it makes sense or encourages you to seek God more in your life situations.  I tend to get so focused on ME and what I want, I don’t ask Him.  He already has a plan laid out for me.  It’s my job to seek Him in all things.  And no matter what happens, if I’m working towards His will for me, the path will be made clear.  Nothing can get in the way.

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The devotional I’ve been talking about is called “What Happens when Women Say Yes to God”  by Lysa TerKeurst and you can find it HERE.

FALL.

I do believe fall, is my favorite season.  It’s not too cold.  It’s not hot.  It’s like perfect weather.  But I live in Phoenix, so we still have another month or so of hot weather.  I’m anxiously waiting for it to get below 105 degrees.  Honestly, 90 degrees sounds beautiful.  (Which is so sad but that’s a true sign of living in the desert!)

Fall to me, means wearing things like this

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I have an obsession with sweaters, scarves, and boots.  I wish I could wear them year round!

What are your fall staples?

Not JUST a T-Shirt …

Take any t-shirt and add a little somethin’ something’ with these gorgeous pieces! Grab them on your way out the door!  Super easy and really versatile!

 

Jazz Up Tee

Silver Shiny Rings Necklace can be found HERE. Wear it with the rings, without the rings, long, or short!

Shimmy Rondelles Earrings can be found HERE.  I’m pretty sure these go with just about anything.

Indigo Mixed Chains Necklace can be found HERE. This can be worn long or short!

What do you think? Wardrobe essential? I think so!